That gut-wrenching feeling when the loan company tells you that you will not be buying a home anytime soon.
We had worked so hard for this! My husband was away from home 9 out of the 12 months each year has to offer. He was pulling back-to-back shifts — sometimes even triple — to provide for his family and buy a home. We were making good money, we were paying bills on time, and our credit was fairly outstanding (for two 20 year olds that is).
But one small thing happened without notice — just one.
The company my husband’s student loans were through had “neglected” to inform us that our payments were not processing. We missed two months of student loan payments (we found out during the second month) but each payment had FOUR separate loans inside. This meant that to our credit reports it looked like we missed eight separate loan payments.
Oh my word!
We fought, we fought, and we fought — even hiring a paralegal. The company agreed that no one was at fault and yet they couldn’t do anything! Sometimes things just don’t go “our” way and we were unable to restore our credit. Now we will have this ding on our credit for six more years — well, seven if you count the whole year we wasted fighting it.
At the time this was absolutely devastating and infuriating news! Why us when we had worked so hard?
We had all of our ducks in a row and every bunny in the basket. (AKA: We were organized)
Finally, we decided that there was nothing left to do but pray about it. We prayed for God’s help, His presence in our life, and for His action. We also prayed for guidance because whether we like hearing it or not, we NEED help.
And it finally occurred to me: Why was prayer my final act? Why did I turn to it after I had “nothing left to do”?
Maybe sometimes we forget how big and great our God is; forgetting that He will provide our needs to us if only we would ASK. Or, maybe we don’t want His help because we know what He will say… “Now is not the time”.
One thing is for sure: as impatient beings, we don’t like to wait.
Things started happening after my husband and I prayed together.
- A move to another city about two months later.
- My husband discovering a new career in Firefighting.
- The Beauty Within 31 was blessed and grew into a business.
- I made friends in the new city — something I had a hard time finding before.
- The best part? My husband now is able to come home almost every night! A luxury that we have never had as a married couple. We are FINALLY getting to know each other (in a married sense — if you get what I’m saying).
And while I’m not saying that God “purposely” wrecked our credit, I think God played a big part in us being denied for a permanent home. I mean, had we been approved for a home then we would have never moved. My husband would still be working that away from home construction job and I would be very lonely.
Most importantly, if we had never moved my husband wouldn’t have discovered his love for firefighting.
Funny thing is, now we are looking at moving again! This time to a big city with a beautiful salary package.
And yeah, I mean, we still have to work hard for what we want and we still have to pray for God’s guidance. Things don’t just get…. handed… to you when you pray. But, prayer is an amazing tool God has given us to communicate to Him about our needs, wants, hopes, fears, etc.
Life did not go the way we planned. But, life did go BETTER than what we had planned and yours will too!
Maybe right now it seems like there is no light at the end of your tunnel. Or, maybe right now you feel that feeling of, “is this all there is?”
Oh sweet friend… I get it; I really do! I’ve been there.
But, from my experience — and from millions of other Christian testimonies — there will ALWAYS be a light at the end of the tunnel if you seek God. Jesus is your light, seek Him and the rest is history. God never promised a smooth road but He did promise us an eternal life with Him (1 John 2:25) and that He will take care of our needs (Matthew 6:31-34).
I know you cannot see it now but you will.
It’s as if you were walking on a trail through the forest but you decide to get a little adventurous and try leaving the trail for a while. But, before you know it night and darkness has taken over the sky. You find yourself standing the middle of a forest with no clue about a way back home.
Pretty scary, huh?
You start to panic and decide that the only thing you can do is to make a small shelter to help get you through the night. As you’re gathering branches to create the small lean-to, you finally get the idea to climb a tree to get a peak of where you’re at.
You struggle and struggle — I mean come on, when was the last time you’ve climbed a tree? But, once you’re finally at the top (yes you did make it, good job), you see the trail which is illuminated from the full moon. And you know what? Turns out that trail was only a hop and skip away! Literally, like a couple pine trees behind you.
Lesson of the story?
Sometimes we can’t see the forest for the trees.
And that’s where you will know that it’s time to step back and let God take the reigns. It’s time to see the situation through His eyes, wait (for whatever that may be worth), and step back so that you can see His glory and handy work!